honesty is the only policy

Before diving in had a royal tonight hardly worth writing about but i havent had one since i was playing 2c 5c so what the hell.

$100.00 USD NL Texas Hold'em - Thursday, September 11, 11:16:38 ET 2008
Table Erthaaprcis (Real Money)
Seat 2 is the button
Seat 1: Mr_rahl ( $189.48 USD )
Seat 2: Nig191112 ( $100.00 USD )
Seat 3: Coamlaja ( $38.00 USD )
Seat 4: Fira01034 ( $19.68 USD )
Seat 5: Ward84 ( $166.00 USD )
Seat 6: Beckham7 ( $50.90 USD )
Coamlaja posts small blind [$0.50 USD].
Fira01034 posts big blind [$1.00 USD].
** Dealing down cards **
Dealt to Mr_rahl [ Ts Ks ]
Ward84 folds
Beckham7 calls [$1.00 USD]
Mr_rahl raises [$4.00 USD]
Coamlaja folds
Fira01034 folds
Beckham7 calls [$3.00 USD]
** Dealing Flop ** [ Qs, Js, 6c ]
Beckham7 checks
Mr_rahl bets [$7.00 USD]
Beckham7 raises [$14.00 USD]
Mr_rahl raises [$178.48 USD]
Beckham7 calls [$32.90 USD]
Mr_rahl wins $138.58 USD from main pot
** Dealing Turn ** [ Tc ]
** Dealing River ** [ As ]
Mr_rahl shows [Ts, Ks ]
Beckham7 shows [6s, 7s ]
Mr_rahl wins $100.30 USD from main pot

One of the things i believe is crucial to progressing at poker is being honest with yourself and not deluding yourself that your not winning for whatever reason ( my favourite has to be "when i raise they call me with anything and hit").

The point is my roll is at $6770 atm and looking back that means i havent made anything for about 3 weeks. This month im showing a loss of $600 over 6k hands. HM tells me im running $300 below EV but there was definately some bad play mixed in too. Unfortunately my once 10bb/100 stats for 100nl have now dropped to 6. Ive also put in a couple of hundred hands at 200nl for a minor loss.

Im currently on target to make the $200 monthly bonus on WH which ive wanted to achieve for ages. Unfortunately im finding my other target of 20k hands this month harder to keep up with and its unlikely ill make that.

I might try and go out somewhere tomorrow see if i can regain a positive attitude.